Life is a Dream

Life is a Dream

Life is a dream for me.

Many people dream of themselves dying and me..

Iv'e tried over 300 times to make it happen.

But what I don't understand is that it's always for the same reasons;

regret, hatred, love, and all together adds up to one word.

Depression Iv'e been depressed for most of my life

but now that I'm older I take action to try and make it go away

Crying helps you heal is what people tell me 

but every time I cry it makes it one step harder for me to breath.

Life the one word that describes the hardest math problem

It's almost impossible to crack open for the answer

not even Enstine could solve this problem

so that is why we come to death.

Death cause once were dead be get a break from all that thinking about the unsolvable riddle life

and our minds set free 

what a beautiful thing.

so maybe death Isn't that bad after all 

that is what I dream.

Written by: Kristen McGowan

Depression

Depression

When I look in the mirror I see nothing but pain,

and the feeling depression lets adrenalin run right through my veins.

I try to cut the circulation off to make it stop,

but then all of a sudden to my knees I drop.

Bottled up with  anger, depression and hate,

I pray for nothing but a little fate.

When no one responds, I don't either.

24 hours pass by I'm in the hospital with a very high fever.

My eyes start to close and I feel a little cold,

is that you with me? Or am I just on hold?

Iv'e been waiting for you for so long.

I keep denying that you are now gone.

Just know that I love you, and I wish I could have said goodbye..

But goodbyes are forever,

so instead I'm saying hi.

rest in peace uncle Chris

1967-2009

Written By:Kristen McGowan

Pray

Pray

When I get my hopes up things go wrong.

I feel more weak, than I am strong.

Shit happens for a reason, so they say.

But I wish it wouldn't turn my world so gray.

All I can do now is pray to god.

Hopefully answering my prayers won't take so long.

By: Kristen McGowan

All I Want Is A Father To Hold

All I Want Is A Father To Hold

All I want is a father to hold,

But he left me here dying in the cold.

He took away my brother,

And he hurt my mother,

But I wont let him get through me.

All I want is a father to hold.

Written By:Kristen McGowan